Thursday, December 29, 2011
Give Me One Reason...
You cheated, and lied and know I have an envelope full of the messages on my windshield from someone who knew. What do I do now? You never hit me, used me, forced me to sleep with you or took money from me, but this hurts and I don't know how much of this pain I can sit through. The things you said to her while you were sitting next to me is sick but the fact I believed your lies is even worse. I wish I knew how to ask...
Thursday, May 5, 2011
"Help I need somebody..."
I'm not as strong as you think I am
I've cried myself to sleep every night, in every shower and in the car before/after work for weeks. I don't know how much longer I can do this, I wish I didn't dream about crashing my car or deliberately take that corner a little faster but I do. I need help but I don't know how to ask.
I've cried myself to sleep every night, in every shower and in the car before/after work for weeks. I don't know how much longer I can do this, I wish I didn't dream about crashing my car or deliberately take that corner a little faster but I do. I need help but I don't know how to ask.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
FIRST LESSON!!
Ok so today...Jan 19 2011
I taught the grade 4 math
I wrote my own lesson plan (I have done for my small group before too) but this time was the larger group (not the threes, but the 4s)
...
I taught them tenths...you know the digit after the decimal.
I was SOOOO nervous to start but I was at the front of the class at the whiteboard teaching my kids it felt SOOO good SOOO good. Like you have no idea as the lesson progressed so did my confidence and I was just elated to be what I want to be. This day also kind of told me that I could do this.
The lesson itself was pretty dull and the kids felt it, but in future I will spice them up a bit, especially when the other group, in this case the threes are doing a seemingly more enjoyable excersize.
I taught the grade 4 math
I wrote my own lesson plan (I have done for my small group before too) but this time was the larger group (not the threes, but the 4s)
...
I taught them tenths...you know the digit after the decimal.
I was SOOOO nervous to start but I was at the front of the class at the whiteboard teaching my kids it felt SOOO good SOOO good. Like you have no idea as the lesson progressed so did my confidence and I was just elated to be what I want to be. This day also kind of told me that I could do this.
The lesson itself was pretty dull and the kids felt it, but in future I will spice them up a bit, especially when the other group, in this case the threes are doing a seemingly more enjoyable excersize.
Monday, January 10, 2011
Day 5
So today was a real true test of this Botox treatment
the weather is shitty so I'm dressed in a ton of layers and wandering on campus in these layers usually causes most people to sweat at least a little. Usually in these situations I sweat...alot. Today however, dry, not like 1000% dry but dry nonetheless, so amazing! I am very happy with the results so far and with only minor side-effects
the weather is shitty so I'm dressed in a ton of layers and wandering on campus in these layers usually causes most people to sweat at least a little. Usually in these situations I sweat...alot. Today however, dry, not like 1000% dry but dry nonetheless, so amazing! I am very happy with the results so far and with only minor side-effects
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Botox Day 2
Ok so got the treatment yesterday
33 needles in one arm and 39 in the other
so after 72 needles yeah I'm fucking sore
Insurance covered the actual Botox, potentially the injection fee as well. This was a huge stress reliever as I can't afford an $800 treatment at the moment.
Last night Rich spent the night, for a few reasons but mainly so someone would be there if anything happened, he also drove me to and from appointment...waiting about an hour and a half for me as well. He's really great.
Aside from some nausea, pain, chest pain and weird swallowing issues, I was ok. No real issues although the chest pain was really scaring me so I sat up for about an hour...I didn't wake him up though, I felt kind of bad...especially because I made him sick too.
Today I am doing much better, still very very sore and quite out of it as well. Had to work but its ok with me, I did nothing at work.
33 needles in one arm and 39 in the other
so after 72 needles yeah I'm fucking sore
Insurance covered the actual Botox, potentially the injection fee as well. This was a huge stress reliever as I can't afford an $800 treatment at the moment.
Last night Rich spent the night, for a few reasons but mainly so someone would be there if anything happened, he also drove me to and from appointment...waiting about an hour and a half for me as well. He's really great.
Aside from some nausea, pain, chest pain and weird swallowing issues, I was ok. No real issues although the chest pain was really scaring me so I sat up for about an hour...I didn't wake him up though, I felt kind of bad...especially because I made him sick too.
Today I am doing much better, still very very sore and quite out of it as well. Had to work but its ok with me, I did nothing at work.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Botox???
After nine years of:
wearing only black and white
avoiding tshirts/long sleeves
changing my shirt at school/work
not raising my hand in class when I know the answer
and avoiding social situations
I am finally in for my consultation for Botox treatment for my Hyperhidrosis. I am so excited that this is finally underway. I am nervous and scared, but SO excited. After my appointment I will post the information about cost, coverage, etc.
Wish me luck
:)
wearing only black and white
avoiding tshirts/long sleeves
changing my shirt at school/work
not raising my hand in class when I know the answer
and avoiding social situations
I am finally in for my consultation for Botox treatment for my Hyperhidrosis. I am so excited that this is finally underway. I am nervous and scared, but SO excited. After my appointment I will post the information about cost, coverage, etc.
Wish me luck
:)
Saturday, January 1, 2011
2011
So I rang in the New Year with a really great guy and some great friends...lets keep this year going great...even with the Strep.
I am also hoping for next semester my luck changes. After my first Field Instructor made my semester a living hell and attempted to fail me, I am transferred for January. As of yet there is no news that she has failed me but I still worry and its eating me slowly. If she doesn't fail me (which I will fight if she tries) I am looking forward to starting next semester as a much stronger and more confident student as well as student teacher.
I cleaned and mostly organized my room and now have an 'educational resources' bookshelf...this is really happening.
On a side note for 2011. I wish all of you out there the best of luck in all your endeavors, especially Rich in quitting smoking...I believe in you, even if you don't!
That is all
Happy New Year
I am also hoping for next semester my luck changes. After my first Field Instructor made my semester a living hell and attempted to fail me, I am transferred for January. As of yet there is no news that she has failed me but I still worry and its eating me slowly. If she doesn't fail me (which I will fight if she tries) I am looking forward to starting next semester as a much stronger and more confident student as well as student teacher.
I cleaned and mostly organized my room and now have an 'educational resources' bookshelf...this is really happening.
On a side note for 2011. I wish all of you out there the best of luck in all your endeavors, especially Rich in quitting smoking...I believe in you, even if you don't!
That is all
Happy New Year
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