I just want to be somebody...

I'm starting to feel like no matter what I do, I'm always second rate. When I got into education my best friends didn't really care. They also forgot my birthday, I've never forgotten anything important in their lives... I'm beginning to feel like I'm settling when I should be succeeding. I've never had many friends, and I don't know how to keep the ones I have...it seems like the closer we get the further they slip away. I just want to belong...is that too much to ask?

I just want to be somebody...

Update

Ok so still sick as ever, less pain though thanks to Advil overdose...which is causing its own problems...they're joyful.
I will be back at school tomorrow and Wednesday, not Thursday and maybe Friday.
Was granted both required extensions and now I can focus on figuring out my project for Wednesday.

Note to self: Chest Infections...don't get them

costochrondritis

about as fun as it is to spell
basically where my sternum and ribs meet has become infected so my chest wall/pleural membrane has become swollen and is constantly pressing up against my rib cage and thus causing intense pain...oh joy
So next week I have 2 presentations, 2 papers and an exam and I can't sit, stand or lie down this is going to be one hell of a weekend
Oh and the best part is it will last a few weeks...yay with my treatment being take advil until you explode...

Something from Nothing

My Community Heritage Project is going to land me an F in a course...fuck
All I needed was for people to talk to me, for her to let the students know...but of course she wouldn't help me...she always hated me...and now I have to present on nothing because of her......... For the Record:I hate you

Its all your fault...you called me beautiful

I don't know how to face tomorrow...
It's getting way too hard...to be happy



I don't not eat because I don't need to, I do it because I hate what I look like...

I saw satan laughing with delight...

midterms: 3
papers: 4
presentations: 6...ish
finals: 1
jobs: 2-3
hours in a day: not enough

I know its not easy but...

I'm here for you whenever you need...just ask